Weak as a lamb
I have been home for a few weeks now and have recovered enough to post this message.
I am as weak as a lamb after a shockingly bad episode in the hospital. I lost two weeks of my life to some sort of mental/drug related problem. I don’t remember much at all of those two weeks. What I do remember seems like a dream! After two weeks I slowly came out of this fog. Even then it took another two weeks just to be able to think half straight without me feeling like I was a half-wit. It is only now I am reasonably clear headed with some days worse than others. By the way, it took the doctors two days to work out that something was not right with me in terms of my drug induced madness. This period is also where my physical health went downhill as I never got out of bed or anything due to my madness!
As a result of the madness I never left my bed and as a result I have lost around 15-20 kg. I look like am starving to death I am so thin. I cannot stand or walk very well due to all the muscle wastage from being in hospital during my mad period. I would post a picture of myself but you may find it too distressing to see how bad I look. Very sad considering I used to be able run 42km a week or bench press 100kg at various stages in my life. Now I can barely stand up and walk
Aside from all that I get periods of very bad stomach pain on most days for up to an hour. It is very frustrating to be sitting there feeling OK one minute and then in intense stomach related pain the next minute. Panadol helps but it takes at least 30 minutes to take effect and during this time I am cannot do anything due to the pain. I don’t like to take more than 4 panadol a day so I have to just wait for the pain and then take the panadol.
I have a bone marrow biopsy next week, hopefully the results are OK. I am a bit nervous as to what will turn up though. Should be OK – fingers crossed.
Oh well, at least I am still alive for the time being